Monday, May 31, 2010

My experiment in minimalism--bet it's not about you

You say my body is closed standoffish--not yet ripe for the taking. Your fingers work quickly trying to find an entrance a place to force your thoughts into me.
"I had a dream about you last night, do you remember? You were right over there by the fire escape." I ask you.
"Of corse I don't remember it was your dream."
"I guess I just think about things like that." My skin prickled with embarrasement, i guess you don't think about things like that.
"I had a dream last night too. I was on a boat and I fell off and then i woke up and was late for calc."
"That wasn't like my dream," I tell you.
"Your arm feels warm."
"You shouldn't know how warm my arm is, she wouldn't like that very much."
"Your cheeks are warm."
"My cheeks are sore." I tell you.
"Why are they sore?"
"I talk too much you know I do."
"I don't think so."
"You don't listen real well."
"That isn't true."
"Do you listen to her?"
"Stop can't we talk about something else there are lots of things we could talk about."
I try to give you something you want...anything, "I'm afraid of pigeons."
"Pigeon?," you laugh, "I' afraid of a lot of things but i don't like to think about it."
We were quite for a minute I don't think you want to talk.
"I saw her at the grocery store today, I couldn't see her face, I never get to see her face well."
"Stop."
"Do you ever think about her face? Or do you try not to?"
"Stop!"
"Do you ever think about my face? It's unpleasant most of the time, but you probably don't think about it."
"Stop."
I'm quite again, you don't like listening to me talk.
"I herd you were failing calc, it made me happy."
"It made you happy?"
"I know it's horrible isn't it?" I say.
"It's pretty horrible."
"I'm just trying to be honest."
"Stop your harder to figure out when your honest." You laugh, I don't at first, but then I follow, it's funny, right, we should be laughing.
"I have some whisky in my room, why don't we go back and have some."
"Will that make us feel better?"
"Tonight."
"Well then let's have some tonight."